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Cocoon

Even butterflies had to crawl before they could fly

Ladies & Gentlemen: I am back, although I never really went away. I will explain fully the reasons for my hiatus but at a later date. For now I just want to end the neglect of the website. Things have worked well, others have not. While I try to re-build my life after these past few  tumultuous months, I thank you for staying with me. Especially those people, who helped me through some dastardly times I have had as of late. Its not been fun guys, I have felt broken, sub-human almost at what has transpired against me.

However, it has happened for the best, one door closes – many more open. Although I felt defeated and disgraced to some degree, I am now slowly rebuilding myself. Its been an eye-opener, believe me – I had no idea things would happen the  way they did. But, the way forward now has my concentration and so far I would like to put forward some thoughts and ideas.

I have tried to make this website as interesting and entertaining as possible. It can only be as good as the contents. I admit, its not as interactive as I’d like it to be, teething problems still exist. My administrator hasn’t implemented the changes I had asked for, but no matter, the website is still live.

As for the horizon seekers – it hasn’t been the success as I had envisioned, though – I am not going to abandon it just yet, may be not ever. What I am going to do I add a new feature in the up-coming months, something similar but with different rules. I am also going to update a few current features and see how things go from there.

Once again, my apologies for having been away so long – it hasn’t been an easy time for me. But Thank you for being here regardless, stay tuned.

Reinvention

The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes.” - Marcel Proust

Its been a while friends, though I did try posting last week, some sort of dodgy error. Anyway, thought I’d sit down – after a long while and get a cheeky post in.

Where have I been? Well, no where really, just been riding the tidal wave of life.

What have I been doing? Same, nothing really – just getting by, learning new things, finding new understandings, looking for more avenues of interest.

What’s new? Now this, this is long answer, lets just say the things I’ve experienced from this post and the last were character building. I’ve waded through many a gunk, only to realise I didn’t really need to. Now, I could elaborate but to be fair I’m too embarrassed, live and learn.

Every now again, what I like to do is go through a transformation, a reinvention of self – so that life doesn’t become too stagnant. I believe in reinvention as it allows a person to shed their mental baggage and have a different perception on life. And, I believe I have an avenue, there is an opportunity pending in the ether, which once solidified, I will inform you of. But, if large changes aren’t your thing – don’t fret, make small changes. Like a snowball, will gather speed and mass and eventually will show you your path.

For many a moon I’ve tried to create this effect, to now resolve, until now. Given that this is uncharted territory I am literally petrified, BUT hopeful. We must leap into the unknown to discover that which we’ve lost over the years…our self.

Live & Learn

If at first you don’t succeed, try again

I have one small criticism with this saying, they never tell you how many times you should try again. I think people who have become successful just try to confuse and convolute those who are trying to be successful. I have failed quite miserably this weekend. I was trying to launch my podcast feature this weekend, something I had pondered for over a year, much to my disgust I failed. The equipment let me down plus I hadn’t considered a few preliminary factors.

I thought something could be salvageable but was sorely mistaken, thankfully my friend was forthcoming. We have rescheduled the podcast for another date close by and we will be ready this time. Later in the day I went to a book signing, it was for the children’s author Aisha Mirza and her story Time for bed Zayd. Her friends and family had come from miles around to see her big moment. Aisha was absolutely glowing with the love and attention she was receiving, I was moved by her reading, really I was of a children’s book.

I spoke to an old friend and had a brief catch up, when I left I felt quite sad. You could put it down to jealousy but what I was truly pondering was my own career. I had now seen someone enjoy success first hand, and there I was enjoying the tatters of my dreams. Whilst I spoke to my friends he told me that we are writers in the company of writers, what we should be is writers in the company of readers. The parable of this could be fishermen throwing nets in a swimming pool with one fish swimming inside. Not exactly the most successful or intelligent of ventures.

I never really got a straight answer for my questions, but then I never do, what I did get was go where the readers are. Suddenly I did a little research into the matter, If I am a horror writer then where are the horror readers? My research confirmed what my friend had told me to do. This is not going to the absolute measure of success but I am going to give wattpad a go. Posting a chapter of my book fortnightly to generate a following. To what end I am not sure, but I am tired of failure.

So what have I learnt?

- Technology is temperamental

- don’t rely on others for success

- naivety deserves no quarter in life

- know yourself before you make assumptions about others

- things can go wrong, no matter how well you plan

The only thing I can do now is just plod along as always, you live and learn, simple as that.