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Aortic Musing

Its better to have loved and lost, than…

I was talking to a friend a little while ago, like most of our conversations the topics normally hover around food and relationships. Whilst both make the heart beat faster, especially food, the one that is more synonymous with hearts is relationships or love if you will. I suggested that wouldn’t it be great if we had a portal or window into the future and saw the person who you’d end up with. Like when you fast-forward a movie to reveal the plot. Wouldn’t it save a lot of time and hassle? Instead of wasting time with people who you will never connect with, just to be able to see the person you will ultimately have.

The notion sounds brilliant, some may argue that this distorts reality but don’t you feel this way sometimes. Where will I be in 10 years time? could reveal something you probably didn’t want to see. I keep trying to imagine my future, my life and relationships, I keep thinking about the ambivalent road ahead. The opacity is always overwhelming, so I reside myself to the strange thoughts in my head. The power of Why was discussed today and the power it holds, Why can I not see into the future? perhaps I am unworthy of the answer, or more harrowing, undeserving of one.

One thing I can be sure of is writing, there is no mystery in that, I muse, I write, I type in an endeavour to entertain. I weave words into the page and tantalise people, I suppose I will continue to do so. I sent a collection to a publisher to receive the usual rejection letter. I am afraid to be accepted now, fear I may have a heart attack if I were to receive an approval message. But the musing of the heart is a very powerful thing, the power of why is always present but the answer undoubtedly lies within the heart. I plan to unlock this through the continued conservation of my writing. Persistence does not require why.

How you look at the glass

if you are incapable of appreciating something for what it is, then is there something wrong with you or it?

As I’ve stated in a previous post I am trying to create an empire, through sheer determination and quality material. But my question to you is what is quality? how do you define quality? its like that old cliché, beauty is in the eye of the beholder, truly its dependant on the person in question.

Have you ever been to an art gallery to look at fine pieces of Art, you get there and there are all these weird and wonderful paintings. There are obscure models made of marble and clay. Personally I look at these and think, “And what?” cynical I know but to me its just a thing someone’s made. You see I am unable to appreciate something for what it is. In stark contrast there are those people who look at single painting for hours on end. They admire the brush strokes, gaze at the colour and study the styling pattern. Seriously, the amount of activity that ignites in their brains because of the artwork make me wonder sometimes.

Art can take many shapes, I am not a fan of galleries but at the very least recognise their important in society these days. You see the art is a sign of the meta-humanity in us all. I totally made that term up, I know you know, but I also know that you know exactly what I mean. You don’t have to believe in a soul in order for it to be there and we express our souls through our art. Yes my friends, this is the philosophy of art and I defy anyone to raise argument with me on this.

But lets go back to the original question and what I am intending to do. I am trying to build an empire, yes. I am in need to people’s attention, yes. My art can be appreciated by anyone and everyone, no. Why do I say this? well you know how when you are internet shopping and you see reviews? Those reviews will either persuade to or sway you from the purchase, so in essence its like someone is vouching for the product. Even if you have 10 great reviews it takes a single bad review/experience for someone to think, “10 good, 1 bad – not good enough”, its like betting odds. and that is what has happened to me.

I have many people who can vouch for me, believe it or not in any field and any situation in life its not what you know, its who you know. I decided to take my art to another level, the world wide web level and for a while I was getting pretty good feedback, THEN, it happened. This person slanders my work, I worked hard on my novel for 2 long painstaking years and this person comes a long and shoots me down. Now I can take this as constructive criticism or I can be broken hearted or something completely different.

However I am going to retort the bad review I got on Amazon.co.uk with a few questions.

What kind of a fool reads a little bit of the beginning, goes to the end to find out how it finishes and declares the book pointless?

What kind of mentally deficient invalid downloads a horror novel for free and then slanders it for being what it is?

Is it my fault that this person doesn’t appreciate the writing style?

If the person didn’t bother read the book properly how can they in their right mind, which clearly isn’t right at all, say its been done before?

What utter conjecture and drivel from this reviewer who is totally a leech on the world of literature. I genuinely hope no one else suffers from their bile. I feel a lot better now having had this rant. I am a genuine story teller and I have many more stories in me to tell, I will always be susceptible to irreverent criticism and the world of writing is besieged by such uselessness.

Having said all that, just because someone is unable to appreciate my writing, does that mean there is something wrong with me or the reader?

You tell me.

Rome will envy me

If people aren’t laughing at your dreams, your dreams aren’t big enough.

Here’s a question for you, why do people hate clichés? well, I don’t know the real answer because its based on perception, but relatively speaking its because clichés are close to the truth. As we all know truth hurts, as corny as it may be but practice does indeed make perfect, ask any martial artist. Musashi Myamoto propounded that even if you were to practice a thousand days you will still be a novice. That’s over 3 years worth of practice and still you don’t deserve a rank. That my friends is focus and dedication, no wonder people discredited him.

We always look for the easy way out, myself included as I mentioned in a previous post. True dedication comes from sacrificing the superficial for the dreams one holds dear. I understand that circumstance also plays a pivotal role in people’s endeavours, the trick is to not let them become the excuse for your inequities. I only speak of myself here, but I bet if you’re truthful, at some point you can relate to this. I realised that I was different than others when I dreamed different.

When I was a boy, whilst most boys my age could mentally de-construct and label parts of a lamborghini diablo, I couldn’t even spell lamborghini. I hated football, again another pleasure for the boys my age, personally I liked martial arts. I was considered weird, although I’m thinking that could’ve been because of the long, leather, morpheous-esque coat I used to wear. I made peace with these social differences a long while back. I had something these lads didn’t, a fantastic talent.

You see friends anyone can be a writer, in your mind, in your soul, heart whatever you want to call it. I was more than a mere writer, I was a dreamer and with a dynamic imaginative complex I was able to weave some pretty tantalising tales. No one truly appreciated this talent, honestly neither did I until I began to see dividends for it. I now have bigger dreams.

Now I want to create an empire, that will rival Rome. Your gut instinct is to laugh, am I right? or if you’re polite I think you deem me somewhat deluded? In any case I have this dream, but more so than that I have vision. If you could paint a path to your dreams what would it look like? I can tell you, you are looking at my map as you read. Hidden in every line I’ve written and you’ve read are thoughts, these are digital way points that I have erected. I don’t expect you to understand my exuberant rantings, I expect you to laugh at me.

I am a living cliché and I deserve to be ignored, I’m wondering how long will you?

Once more, with feeling

“If you can win once, then every single time you lost will be justified”.  - Yasir Hayat

Well friends I am back, this time with some clout. For those who don’t know me you can explore the rest of this site to find out more about me. I used to be a blogger but as time went on I began to tire of the same trivial writing, my heart wasn’t truly into blogging. I find I am more of an entertainer, I want to mesmerise people before sending them on their way. So now, I have my very own website, I must say I am tingling with anticipation. Its my own personal playground that I can discover at leisure. I invite anyone to be my guest, my intention is to entertain your thoughts whilst you stay.

You may ask, If I got bored with blogging then what’s the guarantee of maintaining this website, well you ask a valid question. There is no guarantee, the fallibility of man does not allow for any absolute, but I can promise you something else. At the very least I can promise that during your short stay you will be entertained, if you disagree with entertainment then choose any other word of your choice, I will interest you for a while. You see being my personal website, I can do what I want on it. I say with no trepidation that I am HERE to stay.

I hope I have convinced you of my intentions, I am going to use this platform to propagate my craft, to initialise projects and really harness the crux of my potential. There is so much fun to be had in creating and interacting that I am sure that once you get a taste of the material on offer I will have peaked your interest. I am fully aware of the tasty pitfalls and snares on the world wide web level. Truth be told its the case no matter where you are, there will always be the hecklers, haters and trolls but I can live with that. I want to engage people on a level that has been out of reach, until now.

Consider this post an introduction, not that I need to give one, at some point this website will be firing on all pistons. During its infancy I ask that you have fun and I hope you take away something useful. Be well my friends, the best is yet to come.